[tw] explaining my inactivity

hey! how are you doing?
yeah... i know it's been a while since i posted the last update, and i feel really terrible about it. but my days are pretty bad lately, they're all about sleeping and going to college (just watching classes, cause i can't do the subjects...). i am always tired, without energy and motivation to do anything. i think my excess sleep is the fault of medicines... but i can't say for sure. i'm only going to the psychiatrist on the 15th of next month (on my birthday, lol), so i'll have to wait until then (or i can text her... I don't know).
and to make it "better", I'm liking a guy. and no, that's not a good thing... he is from another course, he doesn't even know about my existence and he is gorgeous; many pretty girls are on him and i'm just a sack of potatoes. and even if there are zero chances that he wants me, i really want him :c this plus my "traumas" related to liking someone, to my sexuality, are perfect triggers for my mind to throw all my insecurities in my face and make me feel worse.
but "fortunately" i am maintaining my weight. this morning (11/15), i was 78.2kg. i'm not thin, but it's better than getting fatter, right?
well, that's basically it.
i decided that i won't record/post until i finish all the missing college lessons (which are a lot), so i'll be a long time without showing up here. if you want to talk to me, keep in touch, i have tumblr, kik and discord; you can ask me for my nick in the comments ^^
i'm really sorry :c
kisses and stay safe ^^

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